& All I Wanna Do Is Write

You build castles on your dreams- bridges of lovers dangling going places nobody walks to remember anymore, & all I wanna do is write. You make mosaics of thoughts & shine disenchanted light beams from outsourced wisdomaniac platforms- charge a dime for a dozen of vaguely cast shadows- preaching the masses out of their disillusionment, & all I wanna do is write. You fix the broken, unable to turn the blade forward far enough to reach yourself yet you continue to break the unbroken to get to their decrepit bits & suture the unwanted back to being whole- selfless, & all I wanna do is write. Make memories for your memoirs when you sit down in your boxes- make moments make melody- move man, because all I seem to make myself wanna do is write- beyond the fiction, in between the hum drum of our action the beats of rest only found on pages, a lasting tenant of the landlord remarks of ages. Making your moments matter, a hallmark card full of dark matter. Tiny plot go boom. In the span of 90 something, if you're lucky then plus ten- you will follow those bridges, break those mosaics, & even turn the blade. & I will be lucky enough to write, because all I wanna do is write, but I would rather not be assumed as a writer.

And we're back! Mind the bold.

What I Did Yesterday:

Yesterday:

Woke up!  Read the OnePursuit for the week- talkin about confidence we can live in that the world has been redeemed by Christ on the cross.  Take that death!  Everyone chime in with the Discovery Channel theme song

Breakfast, deodorant, brushed my hair and FLOSSED 


Packed my gear & vamanosed to band practice.

Met Joanna, who will be singing with us Easter morning, hugged numerous times- learned two new songs- challenged on my bass fills.  Take that Bb scale!

Hooked a ride with Katy Suppes, long lost office friend from those Park Staff days of old...all the way to Chicago Ave.  Took the sunshiniest walk to the Brown Line possible & rocked out to some easy listenings in the ways of Noah & the Whale.  Bested by the wind on the platform on cue with the train- Marilyn Monroed.

Brown Line train to Washington & Wells, attempted to blend into the important people on my way to the dentist.  Still delighted by the sky scrapers.  Gave a quick shout out to a new friend in hopes of evening rockage.

Dentist chair, and some playful banter amongst the technician, the dentist, and myself.  Life is better when everyone is laughing.  Energy is contagious.  Very proudly, in my best "five year old refrigerator artist" exclaimed I've been flossing twice a day for two weeks.  Take that bad habits!

Called the Pops & let him know the excellent details of no root canal (Praise God) & discussed the gosslings he was on his way to help defend from a group of crows he had been monitoring earlier that week.  Ah family.

33 Roosevelt for some Andy's Custard & fine smelling womanly things (perfume solid!)-attempts at part time job but with present unsurity *lemme have this English, of future schedule ... these attempts are just turning into really great conversations with possible potential coworkers.

Red line train to Lawrence because by this time I was superdeeduper tired & the Novocaine was a goner.

CVS for some ice cream, like a boss & jokes with the cashier lady.

Fatal attempt at laundry sorting, massive headache- ice cream & Demetri Martin, no, how about that Supernatural series from 05.

Bed by 9pm.  Take that fatigue!

What I've Been Up To

These past couple of weeks have been really busy, and I haven't had much time to update.

Rightly so, sometimes silence is best, especially through moments of vast improvements.

Which tend to happen every 6-7months.  This puts me where, August of last year?  Yep, definitely in a transition position. 

So, hang tight, you can jump onto Mindful Meander where i'll be actually journaling this, what I hope to be, journey into the woman that I am, not the woman I was raised to be---------

Clean slate, clean slate--------- 

WHAT I did today January 22

Bloody nose will get you out of bed faster than an alarm clock!
Stuffed nose with cotton
Bible study Ephesians!
Nap
Breakfast
Rescheduled appointments
Teeths brushed, hair reset, deoderant!
Manicure
Errands
Exploring Adventure Neighborhood
Laundry
Lunch
Rehearsal
Ephesians!
Class
Cookies
Dinner
Rehearsal

What I DID today- the newly approved

New Alarm Sound

Breakfast

MMA Dad of friend announcement

Flash Cab Discussion of PitBulls

UV Park Set up complete with Panera Bread Member Card- pic replacement (resourceful)

Full classrooms!

Volunteer Interviews

Baby Dedication 

Crocheting Plans

Message on seeking the person of Christ & not religion, dogma, or signs

Children Church LOOP Breakdown 

Handful of Jelly Beans

Busrides

Snarfs

Cupcakes 

Friends

Bible Study 

Car ride

Crying

Dinner

Searching

Finding

Transposing

Rocking

Reading

Studying

Bed

I like that more, the last was a bit much.  

What I Did Today January 21 (Now with a bonus feature!)

Bonus thought from today:  Writing without my glasses is bliss; reading without my glasses is painful.


What I Did Today!

Woke up from a dream around 7am in which the skin on my legs peeled off completely & revealed really supple & healthy skin underneath
Reset my alarm for 9 because Ballet is at 10, not 9am, and it is a 5 minute walk.
Got dressed, washed, & brushed my teeth
Deodorant!
Walked to Ballet
Stretched
Chatted with Sarah in between lessons
Realized that I am in over my head in many areas
Accepted that I am in over my head in many areas
Crossed directions in my mind & did, plie - pas de bouree instead of chasse - pas de bouree
Corrected my error & flew across the floor like a ballerina...on her second day with promise
Laughed & giggled for the rest of the floor exercises
Dressed & crossed to Starbucks
Ordered coffee & a banana
Had a revelation about what it means when someone doesn't know you
Ate a banana
Tossed the banana
2% in my coffee please
Wrote
Saw Mike Rieman
Questioned if it was Mike Rieman
Texted Mike Rieman to be sure
Checked in with a friend
Responded to a few texts regarding brunch & future girl things
Wrote
Realized the proximity of the Davis Theatre to my home
Watched  a man write things on a newspaper in very neat handwriting
Tried not to think too hard about said man was doing on newspaper
Calendared my gets to dos
Scheduled headshots
Wrote
Traded seats with a woman
Circled all the events I actually went to on my calendar from the last two weeks
Edited the next upcoming two weeks
Traded seats with another woman
Left starbucks
Found a cheap couture shop
Delighted to meet an 11 year old who acted like she ran the place
Happy to see her mom standing next to her, who is clearly very proud of the maturity of her child
Took the Brown line to Chicago
Deposited paychecks for the week
Took a call from Natalie about baby dedication
Went over baby dedication information with Natalie
Called the parents of the child being dedicated
Chatted with Kensen about service tomorrow
Emailed my volunteers about service tomorrow
Fetched laptops for curriculum supplies
High fived Jake Ashey
Loaded LP truck with LOOP Bin
Checked into Church as I checked out of Church
Walked to Brown Line
Stopped by Walgreens & purchased headphones, 24 colored pencils, chocolate, and a vita coco
Put my foot in my mouth big time
Took my foot out of my mouth
Went home
Trash out in heels too lazy to put back on boots
Ate left overs
Dishes
Dinner with Anastasia for our birthdays
Ran into Hilary at restaurant
Met her cousin
Small talk & pleasant conversation
Delicious dinner & deeper conversation with Anastasia
Surprise Flan!
Happy Birthday song to each other.
Car ride home to country music
Bath with Ambient music & Biblical Womanhood study
What I Did Today Post


Bed :)


Goodnight moon!  And you too lone wolf, wherever your path took you this eve.

January 11th

Slept in.
Made breakfast.
Brushed my teeth.
Sent some work emails.
Researched open mic poetry slams in the area
Took a nap
Took a shower
Speaker phoned Tricia while I was getting dressed
Picked up the Burgett's car
Ran into Justin & Matt on Ashland
Stopped the car illegally and talked to Justin & Matt on Ashland
Picked up Anna from school
Made Anna a snack
Took Anna to swim class
Made friends with the new Y employees
Successfully got them to switch channels to Cartoon Network
Planned out tomorrow's needs to be dones
Scheduled meetings with Kensen
Picked up Anna from swim class
Took Anna home
Did homework with Anna
Made Anna dinner
Gave Anna a bath
Laughed at NPR
High fived Tricia Luzadder
Found the most awesome audition ever
Scored potential keyboard time
Made mom's group plans
Drove to the Burgett's house
Cleaned the cats litter, fed them wet food
Drove to Ohare
Made three laps around arrivals
Got a warning that the plates on the Burgett's car were expired
Picked up Mabes and Jack Danger
Checked out the most awesome moon ever
Talked politics with the Burgetts
Scheduled babysitting for Jack Danger
Walked with Taylor to the corner store
Discussed nuances in speech patterns
Focused on clarity of thought in a continual calm tone
Realized half of what I say really isn't understood due to a lack of bridges in conversation & over excitement
Discussed upcoming politics
Discussed theoretical means by which we force unnecessary constraints upon personal passions & desires
Drank awesome hot cocoa from said corner store
Watched two horrible people on one awesome show of Todd Margaret
Sent emails to the LOOP team for this Sunday
Emailed awesome audition
Looked up lyrics
Looked up tabs
Checked blogs
Wrote this is What I Did Today

And now i'm going to bedsie bye